a meaningful quote from Steve Jobs

"Again, you can’ t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life."

Totally in line with The Secret. I suspect Steve Jobs was one of the masters of The Secret. 

Steve Jobs, you left a legacy

Credits to Things We Forget: Rest in Peace, Steve.

Woke up to the news of Steve Jobs passing away, one day after the introduction the iPhone 4S.

Looking back, about 4 years ago when I have gotten my first MacBook Pro, and since then ever, I have became a frantic Apple convert, true-blue Apple fan girl. That was before everyone around me has a MacBook in Singapore, so I am not definitely not one of those Apple convert out of peer pressure, maybe just "brother-pressure". My brother kinda encouraged me to buy and assured me how easy I would be able to get used to things. Glad I made that decision(: Since that day, there are 2 Macs at home, and even my parents are a little inclined towards using a Mac, though my home desktop is still a Windows.

Next apple product I've gotten was their iPod nano, in pretty lime green! They have it in my favorite colour so why not right? I am drawn to the aesthetics initially, however, the best thing about an iPod is the turn turn click wheel! Fast and easy to use user interface. Though I still won't call it the best mp3 player, in terms of sound quality, in the market, but it is the only one that does syncing with my iTunes so seamlessly. No more drag and drop, pretty album artwork, all ratings of songs rated with my iPod is synced, with smart playlists like recently added, recently played, top rated, ohhh and not to mention the lyrics function which supports dashboard widgets, iTunes add-ons etc...

And when Apple first came out with an iPhone. The one that is sold in US and never made it to Singapore, I wanted to get one. Tried to find ways to import it into Singapore to unlock it etc, but I guess it was all too expensive, didn't really get a chance to own it at all. Then came the iPhone 3G which finally arrived in Singapore, probably due to the bitterness I felt not owning an iPhone "2" I tried to convince myself over and over again that it is not the best phone out there. I chose to put my trust in an Android instead of an iOS. Although my Android didn't serve me that badly, I started feeling left out by friends and family members playing Angry birds on their iPhones. Oh, and cookie dozer too! I remembered how I kept searching on the Android's Market for this game, trying out all the different keywords combination, but it never did return any good news. Even till now, my Android Market still doesn't have that game, though it is officially out in the Android Market. (My Android is one of the first or second generation Android phones, thus a Market that can't be updated and is no longer able to support many apps.) 

When the Mac app store finally came up, I told myself that I need to get my hands on the Angry birds app, and ta-dah! I got it on running my 15-inch MacBook Pro. Full Size, so much better as compared to those playing it on their 3.5", not even 4" screens. HAHA. I was just happy though I never gotten even close to completing the game, I did not even complete the first 20 stages. I guess playing in on a Mac, with the Trackpad or the Magic mouse just lost its purpose and thrill in the whole game. 

And now as the iPhone 4S is out, (I was expecting an iPhone 5 frankly, plus who would want to own a 4S, and being mistaken as a 4? Then again people who own a 4, wanting to upgrade to a 4S knowing that there won't be a difference in the feel and appearance of your phone?) I am kinda disappointed that there is no iPhone 5. I have resisted various temptations of other HTC new releases like Sensation, Incredible S, even the Cha Cha with a full qwerty keyboard!, just to wait patiently for my iPhone 5. I told friends and family to stop me from buying any other phones till the iPhone 5 is out. But now, they came up with the 4S only, and first. After following the updates of @Macrumorslive on twitter in Apple's latest keynote event, I was left not very spurred on buying the 4S. Though I am looking forward to the iOS 5, but still an additional Siri doesn't really make the 4S more attractive than the 4. (Reminds me of Southpark episode of Humancentipad, where the Southpark Apple made a product that can read.) Hence, I dismissed that thought of owning an iPhone 4S, and to began my long and painful wait for the iPhone 5. 

Now, my brother first broke the news of Steve Jobs passing away to me, it made me realised how, this could be  IS the last iPhone that is with that Steve Jobs *touch*. I am now inclined towards buying an iPhone 4S, not sure if it is to show my support and gratitude for him or do I really want to own this 4S. What if the iPhone 5 isn't as good or as phenomenal as Jobs always puts it? ): Indeed it is a tough decision to make. The iPhone 4S or to wait for the iPhone 5? I am kinda sick of waiting yet afraid that if I eventually bought the 4S, 5 launches as so much better a deal! It is the endless waiting and fearing cycle of Apple users. Always torn and trapped in between... 

Steve Jobs, was such a legacy in the world of music, then computers, and now the Tablets. Look at all that Samsung Galaxy Tab, Blackberry Playbook, Asus Transformers, Kindle Fire etc coming out in the market. And who is the initiator of all these? Him, The Steve Jobs. I guess Moore's law has really to thank him for being the great catalyst.   

Always remembering what a great speaker and presenter he is. I am gonna miss his presentations and keynote events, I remembered how I would always watch almost all of his keynotes events, even those when he introduced Macintosh long long ago. The way he delivers, the zeal and enthusiasm in his every carefully crafted word, is better than Phil Schiller, and Tim Cook? Haven quite watched him yet. 

Re-watched his Stanford Commencement Video (2005) again. Listening to the part where he talks about death, and having a total new revelation about things, knowing that now that he is there, up in heaven and he must be resting in peace.   

  

I guess he could feel himself reaching this final destination soon, explains the stepping down as Apple's CEO. Many of his eureka moments is shared by people all over the world, and with his passing, we have lost a great innovator, a great speaker and motivator. Yet we know that he has indeed left a legacy, and maybe now he is beginning another legacy up there in heaven.  

Credits to http://www.apple.com/stevejobs/

In memory of a simple black top and jeans wearing Steve Jobs. 

 

P.S. I think I will be buying a iPhone 4S and this has been one of the longest blogpost ever, dedicated to Steve Jobs. RIP. 

accomplished much

The title reads "accomplished much". Much in this case refers to only one very huge ass important thing.

I have made a long and deliberate contemplation,

1. To enjoy now and suffer for the rest of the one year or
2. To do my best now and even if I didn't get it in the end *touchwood please*, I would not regret the decision, cos at least I tried (: [Thanks stefy, she gave me a really strong asskicking motivation that lasted me since this afternoon (:]

It kinda suck yet rock. Sucks cos I was damn antisocial, feeling bad that I am so antisocial. I could have put this down and do it another day since I have till next week. But I know myself well enough to say that by putting it down, its gonna be even harder to pick it up and do it again. Huge inertia to be overcome. Since the motivation was there, together with strong immense encouragement, I pushed myself on and accomplished it (which is much).

It rocks cos it was a milestone, definitely. It has been quite sometime since I last concentrated so hard and put in so much for something. I hope I had done my best (or exceeding my best). I think I did - my very best in quite a while...

holga loves ):

I miss leaving house with my purpsholga.
One day, I am gonna bring it out with me all alone. (: (:

after all that other dedications, and it shall be out with me. Sounds super long later. /: and I have decided to treat myself better first. Others comes next. :P selfish, but very true indeed. ):

lack of meet ups, please forgive me my dearest friends..

A quote to start of...

"I will once again stress that I will only say I miss you when I mean it. "

& best friends are not easy to come by @weiantheman you are one such best friend.

@kesleen, you are missed.

@dawn wish we can meet up soon and more often, though studying together might not be possible. HAHA, you know why. *wink*

Sorry to have neglected so many of my other friends. ):
My hectic schedule (work, tuition and my studies) is keeping me occupied most of the time. (really!) It is really not that I do not want to meet up, but my life is pretty much occupied with things. Even my dearest don't get to see me much. ):

No doubt, busy life makes me feel more productive.

Though lethargic-ness kicks in very often. (almost every day...)

National day is just another long weekend to spend time with family (:

The past few days, feasted on FOOD FOOD and more FOOD. Just downed a cup of Ume, not sure if I am drunk/tired/just having Tuesday blues. ): This coming week will be a busy one. All my evenings are occupied once again, don't ask me out people, especially a certain friend, I don't want to feel guilty for rejecting you again! :P just in case you start demanding some form of compensation for your heartbreak. Ya, so in conclusion, Joanqiqi is gonna be real busy this coming week, not at work though, that explains why am I so high after work. :P

Speaking of work, I lost my motivation to learn on my own. I need to find other avenues of learning. I can't be reading a document over and over again for 4 times and claim that I learn something each time. I am sick of cracking my brains, thinking of how to describe what I learned/(work performed) for the week in order to complete my logsheet. I do envy people with things to do. If that somebody has things to do, he/she should indeed treasure his/her fortune to be blessed with duties Despite the task being paper-work-laden, or hard-work-laden, things should be much better than sitting there, stoning, reading story books; for fear that anyone who sees it gets bu shuang, surfing randomly, emailing friends from other companies, and smsing people, all in the name of trying to act busy. Just think of me, and you will realise how lucky you truly are.

Last week, I gave up on trying to find work to do. That was right after my boss/supervisor said, "Sorry I really dont't have anything for you at the moment." ): rahhs to the max. haiz. My immature brain began to wonder, "Doesn't that mean that I can outrightly slack? Since it is not that I don't want to fulfill my task, and I am not responsible. If I don't have things to do, then I shall be given the right to do my own things, and not sit there and waste my precious time." Wasting time has always been one big thing that I hate. I hate doing that to the core, which is why I hated work last week, upon reflecting. Tomorrow, I shall go and approach my supervisor/boss in some other way, to ask for things to do. And please, those people who are freaking supposed to conduct trainings for me, can you hurry up do so. Stop wasting my time. 6 weeks of work, and I am not fully trained. This is one thing that I must remember to feedback to NUS at the end of my internship. Or maybe I should not even wait till the end...

What should I do tomorrow then? Notes are out, should I start studying and reading them(at work)?

I don't understand why I dislike someone so much. Dear, bookworm2 and best friend should know why. I don't like people who purposely oppose and want to contradict me every now and then. I have my point and you have yours, I don't need you to agree with me and I don't want to agree with you either, so just leave it at that. I found myself just nodding away while you are talking and your confusing story bores me. Seriously. This is the first time I am so not liking someone. That's alright, some part of me already don't like something about that someone. People who don't know who that person is, don't bother guessing, don't think you can get it right. :P

Making friends with the other interns, is one of the best things that happened last week. (: (: glad there are some other people to light up my dull life at work! Instilling laughter in my sleepy mornings, afternoons and days. Applied Chem Gathering was great too! It is the company that matters, I don't remember enjoying the gathering that much with some other clique present. Spent a bomb though ):

Just a little something to take away, 上班等吃饭，吃饭等下班。Did I miss out something? Sounds too short and weird. Anyway, quoted from Uncle Say Yong.

Since I am paying school fees while I am interning,

As the title goes, Since I am paying school fees while I am interning, I made the decision to take more evening modules in NUS on top of the self study module and forensics which was the initial plan. Just one more evening module to go, 6 to 9pm on a Monday night. It is a level 4 Core. Yup, level 4. To me the level doesn't seems to make a lot of difference except for the cohort that you are taking it with. Alright, maybe its too soon to make that conclusion, but at least that was what I felt when I took level 3 core in year 2. Dawn was commenting that it sounds like smart joan taking advanced level things. I think she forget to add in just one more word, smart aleck joan would be more appropriate. Hope I don't regret what I am doing. No, I will love what I am doing. The Law of Attraction is powerful, It is The Secret and I faithfully believes in it.

Just to add a little surprise at the end of this post, I might take one more GEM module, provided that I can bid for both forensics and that GEM. Both are modules with high bid points. Together with my Internship, the number of MCs I am fulfilling this semester would be 24 (: Happiness, it makes the money I pay to NUS totally worth it.

another eventful week!

Day after day, there are gatherings and dinner meetings with friends. (: I am loving a lifestyle like this, which is attributed to me still not having much to do at work. THAT WAS AN UNDERSTATEMENT, how about me not having any work at all being assigned to me? Yes, that is the correct description of my state at work. Joanqiqi doesn't like it when she gets to slack too much when she is supposed to be getting the most out of her internship. It shouldn't and must not work this way. She doesn't feel good that she is not doing anything and getting paid, she doesn't feel good when she there is no sense of satisfaction out of what she is doing. She is one who needs to be constantly doing things to show herself and others that she is useful to the society, and her actions are being appreciated. In other words, she (wants to) feel(s) egoistic at times, and loves to challenge the impossible.

Acting busy everyday has came to a halt, it became trying hard to keep myself occupied with something to do for as long as it takes. Meaning, I would decide on what I want to do for the day, for example, labeling of the files, then, I would double and triple check things, make sure that the alignments, font size, logo size, label size, and every other minor details is perfect before I print it out. Even the task of cutting up the pieces of labels was done so meticulously, that it takes me forever to cut out one single label. Effort was also put into making sure that all the clear folders in the files are intact. As reinforcement rings were not available, I would do it the manual way, paste scrotch tape (the 3M brand, made in USA one) over those torn and tattered holes, punch them manually, and file them back into the files. Some of those documents must have aged over the years as they turned yellow and has a stench of "antique"? Hence, that manual reinforcement rings task would take forever to mend up every single aged documents. As you have guessed it, I am just trying to stall time. Doing things to full perfection, which brings along one dis/advantage, me living up to my old name of a perfectionist - a name which has departed from me for years..

Despite all that delaying, I finished all that by late afternoon. Thinking that I have two hours more, I decided to slowly make my way to the filing room with TWO files sandwich between my arms and elbows. I meant slowly, I tried to take my own sweet time to stroll across the lab, get the key from the keybox, stroll out of the lab to the room, open the dehumidified filing room, arrange the files a little though they have all been alphabetized, and numberized by ME last week. Gosh! I can't even stand my own walking pace! I don't walk particularly fast, but I can't stand slow walkers (reminds me of CupWalkers! YUMS! sorry irrelevant!) I hate to waste time getting from one place to another, I hate travelling slowly, I hate waiting, that explains why I am a fan of SBS iris. Afterwhich, I start to feel the dryness and the heat in the filing room becomes unbearable, I made my way out of the room, and get TWO more files and the cycle repeats itself. There were about 2 rounds of 6 to 8 files. Whatever, call me inefficient, which I think might be infecting my brain cells and making them think that this is the way to go! No way man! I told myself to be more efficient starting from the next day, as I do not wish to continue living in a world of inefficiency.

That was the story of yesterday workload and inefficiency. Today, I woke up telling myself that I need to brace myself up and gain something more valuable than purely labeling of files. So I went into lab, started staring at all the protocols and trying to combine all the knowledge that I gained from my endless trainings and figured out how to write a protocol myself. I did a few pages of my own protocol (they are just notes/methods you should follow in layman terms, but I wanted to sound professional) on how to write a protocol. Am I cool or what? I feel so proud of myself, I analyzed the various protocols, looking up various Quality Standards, tried to figure out how the calculations are done, got my brain thinking hard as a list of questions are being generated onto my protocol. I felt so proud of myself the whole of today, I learnt so much more. Rather than sitting there and complaining of having nothing to do, and randomly surfing around, at the same time being afraid of getting caught, I should have taken the initiative to learn on my own. I know that this protocol that I am doing for myself would be useful in future, even as I am typing this out, I thinking about my protocol, and how I should continue improving it tomorrow. I will try and explore around more to find those answers to my questions. Maybe when my supervisor is free, I can bombard her with that list of questions. As for tomorrow I will continue with my protocol. I will begin with the evaluation of calculations and try out some calculations on my own, making sure that I am capable of performing them. This part is tricky, I tried it once before, but I failed. Tomorrow, I am going to make sure that I get it done, if not I am not going to go home! joking!

Are you readers thinking that joanqiqi is such a sensible and hardworking intern? Just a little secret to divulge here so that I don't appear that angelic to all of you. I am not that hardworking at all times. There are times (quite a lot) when I am just too bored to continue reading my protocols. These are the times when I start emailing friends (thank you to these friends!) with my NUS email, messaging from my phone gets too obvious, so emailing is a better choice. Furthermore, the only email that I can access is the NUS email. (rahhs!! ) which in fact is a good choice as emailing from the NUS email makes it less suspicious that I am in truth "enjoying myself". It serves as a façade as though I have some important school stuff to settle. However, the ploy exposes itself soon after, as I am well known for the overuse of emoticons. Seeing all the symbols/smileys floating all over the email messages, you are bound to decipher that façade, and understand that my emails are not for formal school/studies purposes. Sadly.

That best friend has been telling me that he is busy at work, and I have been replying that I hope I can be as busy as your are. I am gonna tell myself "Be careful what you wish for". I liked that song (:

certain someone seems not that bad after all, stop passing judgments so soon, I am not so sure if the bad has turned good though.

it has been three weeks

three weeks, out of the 24 that I am supposed to accomplish. Merely 1/8 of the total. Ask me if I am passionate and excited about the internship, Yes, I could bravely admit that I WAS. That is not the end of the story, because I believe I WILL.

I am glad that I chose to get out of my comfort zone at times, I chose to take the initiative to do things, I chose to interact and take the social route. After three weeks of "work", I finally see the direction I want to head towards, values that I want to gain out of this internship. Today, people start looking for me, in fact too many people were looking for me; some were good news others bad. Nevertheless its still good news to make my presence known.
joanqiqi gives herself a *pat* on her shoulders. (: smile like you mean it, sincerely.

There were some problems/ situations faced at work. Things that irritates me, not that much of irritation, just a bit upset by the way things go. Alrights, at least I have people whom I message straight away to talk to them about my problems. Thanks baby and best friend!

Looking backward, I think it might be the circle of life at work, I have lent a helping hand to two aunties, and one watermelon army guy today. Maybe that's why things are starting to perk up a little. (:

My beloved Enfant left for Laos, hope those reflective glands in brain work themselves out, I am looking forward to an interesting narrative. And me being an obedient friend is doing what she has instructed, DON'T MISS HER! :D no worries, I am not missing you a bit at all.

Baby, is sick. ): He looks tired just now. ): hopes he get well soon!

My supervisor is sick too. The colleague sitting behind me is sick too. Xuejiao seems to be falling sick too. My brother too! Please flu bug, go away and never come back. I hate you, I am gonna develop some new drug to kill you!

revamped my blogskin!

HELLO PEOPLE, YOU ARE AT THE RIGHT BLOG! :D I JUST CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN!

That sense of happiness after I revamped my old blog skin. (:

I am not sure what came over me today. All I know is the rain has dampen my plans to head out, and here I am stuck at home, reluctant to finish reading my P.S. I love you, 'cause I don't quite agree with the book, and I am partly angry at what is happening in the last few chapters. Just like the character in the book, I need some time to think through, perhaps also to reconsider the meaning of love from another point of view. This isn't the love that I am used to.

Back to my new blogskin, I can't say that I did the whole thing myself, all I did was to do some clicking here, moving sliders here and there, just to customise the whole blog to a "joanqiqi" feel (: somebody commented that my new blog skin looks pretty (: Thank you! :D :D The only part that was rightfully done by myself was the banner (: Decided to make something not so kididish like my previous one, played around with comic life once again, and got the banner done! It agree that it isn't perfect, it could have been better as I did not spend a long time doing it.

With the new blogskin, it marks a brand new start. A whole new motivation to blog too. (: I will try to blog more often from today onwards, in spite of the starting of my internship. With the internship ongoing, tuition ongoing, I can feel my life picking up speed. Routines after routines over and over again. Perhaps blogging will become part of this routine, to document my everyday life as an Intern, and also serves as a time machine, transporting us back to the past as and when I want to. (:

Blogging in English seems to be a considerable feat nowadays, pardon my Singlish. :P Efforts shall be made to cut down on Singlish, that shall be my 21 year old resolution. (I am not 21 yet, just 21-to-be) Revamping this blog was also part of the 21 year old resolution thing; I am too old for a childish looking blog. ):

Now, back to doing a lonely 21 year old thing, cooking dinner for oneself.

rainy day, so will it flood again?

Today's weather was looking all so fine, all the way till I finish researching about my new-found love.

Those dark clouds succeeded in discouraging me not to get out of my house. Yeah, I found no exact purpose to go out if it was pouring this heavily. So here goes another wasted day. Feeling pretty free and alone now. Should have invited liyong over for Wii session! We have yet to complete our Mario and Sonic Winter Olympics, though its Summer now.

Life over the past one week was love. ♥♥♥
I get to spend almost every second of my life with dear dear(: (maybe minus the sleeping time)

This is the first time we ever took *muacks muacks* photos! :P

dear starts to think that he has a really tan chi dear dear :P I have been eating tibits non-stop, and reminding dear dear everyday about yummy chilli crabs!

They are the two little cuties that went wherever I went. (: I love them loads (:

24 hours of our road trip, etched forever in our memories! together with the many photos snapped and taken throughout the 24 hours. Going to many places for the first time in my life, falling in love with all those places and our never-ending conversations that makes time fly super-duper fast! Sitting on benches, along sandy beaches, under the yellow tint of moonlight shining through coconuts trees, feeling and smelling the strong sea breeze while looking at colourful lights shining from afar. Bliss. (: I prefer sitting on benches as opposed to on those break waters. The cockroaches on those break waters frightens me, and keeps my mind focused on looking out for them instead of concentrating on our ♥2♥talks.

Braving the stormy weather, and we had our piping hot breakfast at the macs in East Coast Park. It was an exciting moment as the water level outside macs were rising, almost level to the door, and the electricity in macs got cut off TWICE. (It bothers me as my WiFi connection was disconnected twice!) Though, it was a romantic macs breakfast with the lights off. heee (: macs should try out candle light breakfast. Just needed to mention this, it was really early in the morning, probably around 7 to 8 am? considering that we slept at around 2am the previous night, we had every reason for our sleepy eyes :P

sleepy eyes + dear's sunburnt face (minus the sunglasses marks!)

Just returned from our batam Spa retreat at Harris resort. Totally Rejuvenating. Though it was quite paiseh as I laid there giggling/shaking uncontrollably. The place was pretty and rather clean. Service was never without a smile! Seafood was darn good & cheap!! We ate a lot for two person! I just can't seem to stop thinking about the chilli crab!!! Urghhh.. hungrryyy now!! Ate a lot once again! A&W (: gosh! I wanted to steal one of their spoons back to remind myself of the wonderful Rootbeer float! Seasickness kicked in a little on our way back. With the noisy indo kids going out to Singapore for an overseas trip, dear dear was pissed. They were rude little rascals! rahhs. Our mood were ruined! Other than sleeping in too late and missing the hotel's breakfast, everything went fine (: I love swimming with dear dear! hee (: we shall go diving next! I overcome the fear of touching fishes, and you had to mention the jelly fishes, need to work on my fears once again :P ohh, and lets try bintan too (: I want to drive the buggy car!

After we were back from Batam, we crossed the seas once again over to JB for a half day trip! :D we got the best buy for the month! *right darling? :D Ate at Nandos, same food, same price, different currency! How good is that huh? I don't find the Hot and the Extra hot Peri sauce very good though. I prefer the garlic one! :D I think I secretly love garlics, just like how I love A&W garlic chilli and of course, THE ALL-TIME-FAVOURITES Mcdonalds garlic chilli! :D shopped around, dear got a geniune leather wallet, specially for overseas use! :P cheap cheap only and he bought it 'cause I kept reprimanding him about his wallet which cannot keep money neatly. :P ate our favourite Snow Ice! :D hee! (: yums to the max! I still can't find any shop in Singapore that sells Snow Ice better than them! Wanted to eat Baskin Robbins 31 too, but was too full, and we had no money left! :P We didn't even have enough money for dinner, and we didn't wanted to change more money as the exchange rate dropped till 2.29 ): rahhs. We, two poor little souls then decided to head back to my home and dear cooked the 22cents per packet of Indomie, imported all the way from Batam! :P of course, in order not to seem too pathetic, I fried some scrambled eggs and steamed a New Moon *atas* Otah! Home-cooked food are filled with loves and warmth. (: (: (:

This roughly summarised my life for the past one and a half week. (: gonna resume blogging soon. Anyway, for those who are still reading here, you can actually read at my Tumblr too. Short little updates are posted there (:

Happiness is sipping a pint of Munich dark. (:

enjoyed the day (:
Simple joy.
when my tutee is good.
when dear especially loving is.
when I have talks with brother.
when I snip some of my fringe off.
when I fall in love with another song.
when that song is by miley cyrus.
when it kept repeating in my head.
when I feel accomplished.
when positive I am.
when certain decisions are being made unconciously.
when friends reply your sms.
when friends catch up via sms.
when graditude is felt.
(: (: (:
Happiness is so simple.
First time feeling much better.
Being in control rocks.
Time still flies.
But I am gonna fly even faster and higher.

to beer buddy: you can do it too! (: overcome your emoness!

misses ):

when i miss somebody or something terribly badly.
tears just cant stop falling.
I don't have to know every single thing that is happening in other people's life, do I?
Then why at times I really want to find out, being afraid of missing out with the minutest detail..

even missing out on time, I feel sad.
of course I want more meet ups, more time for myself, more time to do more things...
nah, its not possible.
suddenly, when there are too many things to do, I don't know where to start.
and whenever I don't know where to start, I waste more time. Vicious cycle.

I feel guilty for agreeing to a meet and then to cancel it, due to the pressing deadlines of my other shit ass work to be done.

Finished resumé. and cover letter for GSK.
realised that my GSK's cover letter is too specific to be used for the other two companies.
Need to rephrase quite a few paragraphs for the other two.
haiss.
):
damn.
just let me get GSK.
and materials people, don't compete with us please..
GSK's pay is really little. only about $700 per month. I don't mind, but just let me have it please.

one last thing,
weian's sis leaving for Holland got me thinking.
Will I miss the people in Singapore more or will they miss me more when I am over in Germany?
The thought of being alone sucks.

this is just a little emo post flooded with tears, I will recover.

life is being practical

realised that life is all about being practical.
So true.
I haven been around on Earth for a long enough time to realise this stark reality of life.
Glad to have someone 7 years older to enlighten me.

Haven been blogging for several weeks.
Last entry dated 2nd Dec!
Which was the last day of my exams.

Today, 31st december, I've decided to blog. (:
Just a little round up on December events! (:

Had been traveling for a great deal in December.
First, to Vietnam.
relaxation, shopping, etc etc.. (But not eating, seriously, I don't quite enjoy Vietnamese Cuisine.)

Then, to KL.
shopping, eating, shopping, eating, shopping, & ICE SKATING! (damn fun!)

Next, an impromptu trip to JB.
rebonded hair, treatment-ed hair, did all the miscellaneous "groceries" shopping, dinner with aunts and home sweet home. (:

Lastly, Genting trip next week.
theme park, casino-ing (maybe!), Karaok-ing, (:
totally looking forward! :D and this trip was really affordable (:.
S$50 for 3nights of hotel stay, good deal right? (:
(yesh, its first world. :P )

This short little one month holiday had been fulfilling.
(: family and friends gathering.
Family gatherings always ended up with people staying over at my place.
Nephew and Cousin stayed over. (:
our extra mattress was being carried out and into the storeroom several times.

Had a Boxing day BBQ at my cousin's place.
It was a bring-your-friend day.
haha. okies, so all the friends came.
not all, my brother's one didn't but he really doesn't have a friend! :P

Had Seven sisters welcome-enfant-home-party, plus celebrate Xmas party.
Attendance was good, but everyone had to leave early, and I was there on & off to settle my Wii problems.
& we are pretty much caught up with watching the Korean show on Channel U to catch up.
Good to be seeing everyone (:
& there was a short NUS gathering in the end (as always).
experienced jiawei's driving, and had fun driving around the carpark. to avoid the carpark attendant! :D

Had Xmas gathering (or rather Boxing day) at desmond's NEW house too!
lots of people, but i was feeling rather stoned la.
tired, bloated and not feeling very well. ):
went pubbing after that at iluma. (:
Had a squeezy squishy car in a BMW.
poor dear dear. :P

Pubbing was fun with darts and pool! :D
sadly, pub closed at 1am. & we headed home.
how can a pub close so at 1 am right?
Bro & cousin was at my place, and they bet on what time I will be home.
Bro won :P

ohhh, and a long time ago, went K box with Kes, Stef and Kris to celebrate Kes's birthday.
She suggested celebrating her birthday :P
Thick skinned one! :P

pictures will/might be uploaded on Facebook. (:
stay tuned!

the cute animation!

I grew richer today. but i cant get those money into my BANK ACCOUNT!! ):
German test tmr. wish me luck. I think i cant make it. feeling upset with myself for I dunno what reason. I wanted to do other things, but the Test is tmr. I should study that, yet, it is not productive at all. maybe if i had done other things, it might be much more productive. What happened to the interest in German. Haiz. ): watching this video really cheered me up! maybe I will be able to focus on my German for 5 more minutes...

Dinner with six sisters tomorrow. I reserved seats for seven. yeah. blur me. i miss enfant too musch that's why. ):

no more complaints.. ✌

Joan has learnt that she should stop complaining about her workload.
don't ask her why did she come to this sudden realisation, but she just knows that it's doing her no good to grumble and complain.
That's life.

Plus, she do enjoy what she is studying now. Frankly speaking.
Even lab reports seems so fine at times.
Even if she is gonna get thrashed by everyone in all the modules that she takes this Semester, she will have no complaints. She chose this path. This is what she wanna do.

I CAN DO IT! :D YOU GO GIRL!! :D

❤ Something worth mentioning: Had a greatest day of the month with my dearest him yesterday :D
Great food(from brunch till dinner), Great ambience, Great company. What more to ask for? Pure bliss (: loves ❤

p.s.: xiao long bao buffet with seven sisters(but not enfant) this friday! :D please.. i hope that everyone can make it! haven had a full gathering for such a long time!

♫oh people and I finally uploaded most of the pictures into my computer! Will start uploading pictures soon! :D erm.. i try to promise!♬

on a totally random note.. my brother praised that my nail polish is nice! (black, purpish, pinkish flash.) :D hee (: mama also like those nail polishes! :D OPI does miracles i suppose!! :D

stress starts bulding up.

SAD THINGS...
everyone starts to mug.
everyone gets hardworking.
that includes me. time is tight, and schlafenzeit ist diminishing.
lab that day wasn't fine.
I was late for German for 45 minutes?
How fine can it get? ): I would never want to be late ever again.
German (and maybe PR3101) are my favorite lectures.
Sucks.
and i cant believe that I actually prefer level 3000 modules. What's wrong with me?

HAPPY THINGS..
went over to ION orchard with kesleen to collect my OPI nail polish!
They are finally here! :D
Happy! :D just applied them. (: pretty pinkish red.
Had Gustimo with kes. (:
with a mini chit chat session.
it has been long since we talked.
there is this really heartwarming feeling whenever I talk to saggi buds.
Guess we are both saggis.
And it seems that she truly understands and see things in my point of view.
Kes and I decided to reserve a seat for 4 for xiao long bao buffet tmr.
However, it was already fully booked! ): arghs.. ):
Never mind. We promise to go again!

Dad doesn't want to fetch me to school again tomorrow.
damn it. waking up at 550am is shit.
haiz. it affects my concentration level in lectures.
I am going to down a can of red bull tmr again.
8am to 8pm.

melting here!

i am back! since last monday! :D
life has been great in Singapore.

Albeit, missing all the great things in Germany. Weather, beer, cheese, Chocolates, People!, Wurst! :D gosh! back to Singapore is actually returning Back to Reality!
In this short one month, I have learnt precious, non-german related lessons.
Met numerous people with different mentality to things and will react differently to things. interesting i would have to say.

Coming back to Singapore = "lock me in an ice box!!"
I am melting here, sitting in front of my MBP. come on someone! please, create an aircondition DOM to surround Singapore!

Had a few gatherings ever since monday!
I finally saw my cutie nephew, "shaolin xiao he shang"! hehe! (: and my cheeky mabelle, and mischevious marcus! Celebrated Daddies' day together with Sharkfin(Whatever to Earth Gaia.. isit even part of this campaign?), melted tiramisu cake!, mummy+auntie+uncle+cousin's cooking, LOTS of CHOCOLATES from Germany!, play+swimming, karaoking!,

Had a 4 sisters gathering at my house! it was a mahjong session! me, stef, kes and liyong! the lousy mahjong player! haha! and i won! :D hehe! :D i am the pro mahjong player! though liyong was lousy, we managed to get a man fan!! must be beginners' luck!

Last friday morning went to send enfant off at the airport! She left for India. (land of jasmine and curries!) I woke up at 5am just so that i can send her off!! my biological clock is totally screwed up! nevertheless, it was a fruitful airport visit! cos i get to drink an early morning Starbucks drink! (: Starbucks in Germany was totally unaffordable!

My saggi SMS buddy is not in town now! and by the time she comes back, i wont be in town! rahhhss... I miss the days where type long essays to one another! haha! and how we talked about almost everything under the sun! i think she got most of the gifts i bought back from germany! cos i always think of her whenever i see something!!! RIGHT KES?? haha! but i will be back by saturday! :D we can continue our long sms chat on saturday then!! i bet BKK shopping was great! :D i wanna go too lo! wonder if you managed to get my wooden slippers!

oh ya, as i was saying i will be away in Batam till this Fri. (: its a last minute family getaway!! alrights man(:

dinner date with dawn and sheena tonight! :D

and sorry to wei'an and kaiwei! We will have to postpone our brotzeit day to next Wednesday instead! :D Bis dann!

its a vicious cycle...

Recently many are telling me that snoopy is very old!
Its the oldest cartoon or what la. Thanks to the jacky wu show.

Nevertheless, I still love snoopy!
I love old stuffs (:

Got some results back.
Best being my German Vocab test! :) 95%! Woohoo!
Next vocab test coming up, thursday. will be aiming for around this grade or even higher!
Looking forward to my immersion over there!
Hopefully I will be able to catch up and learn a lot more! :D

Got my CM1121 mid-sem test too.
61/100. Okies la. thought that i would do worse.
Question 2 was a killer for many.
20 marks question. Luckily i got 13. I think that was what saved me.
Test is doable if you study really hard and really understand all that organic mechanisms that are happening.
My tutor is right, It has been proved that for CM1121 people can get full marks!
yeah, my best buddy's best friend got full marks! 100/100!
Unbelievable! Nah, i think it is believable la. Cause its him! and he actually has the cheek to tell me that he haven found his stimulus. What the hell!

Got a B for the most recent labreport.
I think it is largely due to the fengshui of my fumehood.
Fumehood G6 really has lousy fengshui!
Things just don't turn out as it should be.
And i did not do anything wrong at all! How can that be right?
Haiz, hope that this lab report will be better than the previous one.

I believe that it will (: and things will eventually turn out right. (:
The secret, I am loving it. (:

racing against time

When the whole world is against it.
You either choose to do well and survive.
Or do badly and get humiliated.
which is for you?

it isn't easy.
nobody says that its gonna be easy.

I got my immersion to Germany.
going over to University of Stuttgart for 3 weeks for intensive German lessons.
from 18 May till 15 June.
Pretty sure that I got the choice that I want.
maybe i am gonna travel a bit too. (:
planning all that stuff isn't easy.
Air tickets, accommodation, train tickets, etc etc.
Haven done much of the planning, and i am not really sure what i really want.
So much things to be done, so little time to accomplish.
Procrastination no more. Though it always end up as more procrastination.

Everyone wants to do well. who doesn't?
If everyone else puts in double the effort that you put in, do you think you will be able to do better then them?

Time really flies.
Every minute, every second, every nanosecond counts.
I know it very well for myself.
Many things to do. Efficiency is the key.
Efficient without compromising quality, possible?

there are moments that i miss.
things that will never happen again.
I know that i should be looking forward.
so why am i looking back?

Life is complicated.
yet, life still has to go on.

Why are so many people committing suicide or thinking of doing so?
Why do people choose to end it all when life is supposed to go on?
Those who use death as an excuse to escape life are real cowards.