NP chalet pictures

chalet photos up..

have decided to upload them now

before i procrastinate any further.

(these might take very long to load as i did not resize the pictures.

and they are all taken with my 3.2MP K800i)

taken during our beach volley game in the room.

oops. forget to take a picture of 

the watermelon look-alike volleyball

this is dawn's hamster.

named SMELLY!

i gave it the name.

haha.

but somehow i feel that SHIT suits it better.

though its quite a crude name.

 

the night view of Wild Wild Wet.

taken at the swimming pool of our chalet.

quite a nice view looking at theme parks in the night.

it's a pity that the picture quality is a bit very bad.

  

 

   

 us us us us us.... 

haha...

didn't zi-lian a lot though..

don't feel very much like it..

especially when i am wearing my glasses.. =P

ahhh!! don't you think it looks damn scary?!

Sheena and I were damn scared can?

Especially when its dark.

the ghoul seems to be floating towards you!

ahhh!!

Wild Wild Wet group photo

only five of us went to WWW.

so sad.

its not as fun as when a lot a lot of people go.

still i love the slide up!!

ans sheena has this special ability of making people FLY!

yes.. its only sheena..

we drank.

yes.

mine, sheena's, dawn's.

1 is legal, 2 is illegal..

but who cares.

we aren't drunk also.

 

this was what went with our drinks.

guess what is it?

its malt candy.

flavoured malt candy.

honeydew, sarsi & lychee.

mine, dawn's & sheena's..

the one on the right is the masterpiece by dawn.

dawn created it by sucking, "tonguing" and licking it.

wonderful job.

oh ya.

pictures for BBQ.

erm.

this is the only picture i have for BBQ.

haha.

do you know what that is?

it's a burning marshmallow.

it can be used as a fire starter.

cool! (=

and that's fahmi's crazy idea of burning the marshmallow.

three of us zi-lian-ing before sheena and i leave the chalet.

taken through a mirror.

we took quite a few more.

but i prefer uploading these two only.

it looks quite erm.. dunno leh..

but!!

i love these two pictures a lot!

really!!

especially the one on the right.

though the color didn't turn out very nice,

it is still a very sweet picture. (=

haha.

credits to dawn! 

she took the picture!

that's all.

chalet has ended.

what was left is the memories, pictures, and probably also the sun burnt.

promised that sheena, dawn and I would go out for dinner one day.

when will it be?

ok, i will take lots of pictures with you all if we go out for dinner.

that would be like after my JCTs right?

yes, my JCTs.

it's time i really wake up from my peanuts land.

it's study time.

serious study time.

i am working for As.

Not for JCTs only.

i guess only i understand what is going through my mind.

Spider Lilies

damn it!!

i really wanna watch this show!

why why why??

why is it rated R21!!

please its only homosexuality...

its not like after watching it you will turn lesbian right?

plus in the recent review that i read, it says 

"Spider Lilies isn't a lesbian-themed movie per se - it's a story about finding and losing connection which just happens to feature gay characters."

i think i am still going to sneak into the theatres.

i don't think i have to sneak in though.

Probably my brother would have to..

haha..

hmm..

how how how??

trying hard to derive a plam to watch this movie..

if i don't watch it now, there will never be a chance..

why cant't they release R21 movies on DVDs?

(maybe except if I were to go and "find" the movie)

haiz..

i will see how it goes..

for now, i shall go back to my studies..

will upload chalet pictures soon..

i'm feeling sleepy again..

yawns...

eyelashes wishes

have you all heard of this before?

pluck out one of your eyelashes and make a wish..

& you wish will come true (=

but of course those with short or like no eyelashes..

i'm very sorry..

you will need to find some other means to makin your wish..

And to those with long and beautiful eyelashes..

yes yes..

try it!

it works! (=

(this is just part of my conspiracy to eliminate all those with beautiful eyelashes! i'm so so so jealous of your eyelashes!)

♥♥Sony Cyber-shot DSC-T100♥♥

i hate it when i love something a lot.
its a like and a dislike kinda thing.
you want it yet there are many many factors to consider.
oh man.
i am so so so loving it.

but why?
look at it yourself...


so sleek and slim and damn pretty!!
ultra compact.



not bulky and ugly like my old one..

Sony Cyber-shot DSC-T100

8.1MegaPixels

5x Optical Zoom

Face Detection

Carl Zeiss® Vario-Tessar® Lens

SteadyShot® Image Stabilization

Max shutter speed 1/1000 sec

Macro focus range 1cm

can someone by this for me??

please please please..

$699..

i want an additional 1GB Memory Stick PRO Duo!

and also an additional battery. (=

ps: i prefer the BLACK one..but i dun mind any other colour also(=

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extra: its really nice commercial (=

photos!

wow.. realised that i haven been blogging for a long long time..

i guess its not cos i've nothing to blog about, but i guess i've too much things to blog about that i dunno where and when to start. In other words, you can say that Joan is a little lazy..hee..

okie, since I am once again in no mood to blog.. I shall upload photos!

pictures speaks a thousand words! hee!!!

many many photos to be uploaded!

this is jiawei's pooh.. named cute joan!!

the moo advert in TJ before sports carnival..

clay shooting at bukit timah rifle range!

it was really damn damn fun!!

& if i were a rich kid, i would confirm continue de =)

this is first aid unit after the sports carnival!

woah! we won 1st in dogdeball! ($60 Haagen Daz voucher!)

2nd in tug of war!

morning view of TJ...

can u see the sun rise??

this was swensens at suntec!

yummy! (=

stef, liyong & phebe.

the three octo-crazy peeps!

baby octo was damn yummy!! (=

me, kes & jiawei!

the three zi-lian ones..haha..

i've quite a few versions of this photos..

only the three of us..

heee..

i know the lighting sucks..

forget to change the mode la..

the seven of us squeezing in to the picture.

with pak pak's head at the top right hand corner.

haha.looks funny.

Kes and I after bathing.

my photo was so damn blur la! (grrr...kes ah...)

the cakes Mr tan bought.

from baker's inn.

dun think you can see it that clearly.

dun die.study hard.study hard.

but it damn delicious!

tiramisu, strawberry & choc!

the wine that Mr tan bought.

fruit wine.

i took like two small sips only.=(

my ultimate zi lian partner!

pee-zi-ke partner.

& sneak-ER!!

i truly enjoyed the chalet times with 30/06!

the times in WildWildWet.

the picnic we had at one corner.

the walk to red house.

the many photos taken in gauri ang bao's camera! (=

this is so far the most interesting period of my life during the hols!

thanks to those who made the chalet possible!

looking forward to the chalet that will be coming soon.

NP chalet!

miss those people & times.

it has been close to one and a half yr since i last met some.

this will make up the next unforgettable part of my hols life! (=

for now, i will be spending very much of my time studying.

mugging on.

thriving to do well for JCT.

hopefully i can.

and sorry to those who asked me out to study & i rejected.

dun really feel like going out in this hot weather.

sorry.

& i am not attitud-ing la.

maybe this is just the after effect of using too much brain cells.

dun worry. i m fine really.

ponning school

oh no!! what am i doing? why am i not doing serious studying..i need motivation! very strong motivation!
there isn't much time left. i still need to catch up with many many topics from last year which i am still unsure of..

i dread going to school.. i dread having breaks in school. i dread falling asleep and wasting my time in school. yet, i should stop ponning school.

haiz.. this is bad. i think my attendance is very bad too..

but as long as the opportunity cost of staying at home is lower than that of going to school, i'll prefer staying at home. and this is especially so on mondays!

heaps of homework waiting for me. i am like lagging behind in millions of tutorials! i'm amazed at how the hell did these tutorials accumulate? i hate catching up in tutorials. it makes me feel lousy. i prefer to be ahead.( like who don't?) okie, need to buck up. start doing tutorials(not to mention studying for those upcoming tests with so many topics!!) and stop slacking.

yes, i have to do well for As. i know i've to. and i want to. so just do it. impossible is nothing.

randomness..

Strangers are just family that you've yet to know...
=)

back to TK! soon i mean..

yes yes!! i will be going back to TK!! erm...quite long later though.. probably like end of this year when my A levels finally ended.. haiz...really waiting for that day to come!
i miss the days in TK! i miss all the fun time that i enjoyed there.. all the friends i made... all the caring teachers.. haiz. .life will not be back to whats its like previously.
Nevertheless, i do enjoy life in TJ. but its just a different kind of enjoyment i guess.

going back to TK is something that i am seriously looking forward to! especially so when someone promised to go back with me after my As! sorta a motivation for me to study harder for my As too. this is one of the small little things in life that keeps me going. TK rOx!! =)

parents tutor dialogue

it was quite a fruitful meet-the-parents session.
hmm. through this meet-the-parents session, i realised something more about myself.

1. i appear tired in class.(means i tend to fall asleep during lessons) - i would like to rebut this point!! i am really trying my best not to fall asleep already! i will only sleep if i feel that the lesson aren't very useful, or if i'm really feeling very very tired and i cant stand it anymore. The times by which i fall asleep is a Poisson distribution, if you exclude those during GP.
2. i have a short attention span. oh man. this makes me sound like a primary school kid who cant keep their eyes on the teacher for more than 5minutes! i DO NOT have a short attention span. i'm just trying to keep myself awake. i mean instead of listening to the teacher, i'm trying to diverge my attention else where. that doesn't mean that i have a short attention span! it just shows that the lesson is erm...not interesting enough to keep me awake!
3. i need TONIC! haha..yes yes.. i need tonic! lots of them. whatever ginseng, chicken of essence, lingyang etc... i need all of them.. could some nice soul please buy me some of those? hee..
4. yes yes.. this one is funny.. a particular teacher commented that i should learn to have some self control and not continue laughing at a joke for minutes after the joke is told. this is an interesting one. i don't have anything to say to defence myself. i just think that its natural to laugh.
   

these are my four main take aways for the whole parent tutor dialogue session. not really very useful as you can see. but the general positive comment was that i am indeed improving! =) yup. hopefully this comment is true till the end of the year.
furthermore, why cant teachers tell us these things straight? i mean why do they always have to let our parents be the first to know? if we don't know what's wrong with ourselves, then how are we suppose to improve and change before you all meet our parents?
my conclusion is that they just want to have something to say to our parents.

100th day! =)

swimming day!

yes! love swimming!
especially with my infant PHEBE BAY CHUN HUI!
haha..
i love it when we get to swim in the whole big swimming pool all by ourselves!
i love it when all the rest get out of the pool while we stayed behind and continued swimming!
i love the feeling that you feeling that you are exercising yet you do not feel the sweat.
it feels hot in the water yet at the same time the water keeps me cool.
the feeling is just so good!
i wanna go swimming soon!
=)

and we swam in the rain today!
woohoo!

16 April!

yes! 16 April!
its once again 16th!
=) =) =)

three months has passed.
things are moving along well.

trust is important.
very important.

a sweet sweet three months.

who cares what others think?
whatever they think isn't gonna affect us.

i know what i am doing.
i know what i myself feel.
i know that only i am comfortable with him.

yes, that's enough.

so what if people look at me differently?

i am happy with what i am doing.
thanks for your concern.
Life is great with him! (=

<3 him

ben & jerry 2!

reached ben & jerry at 2.25pm.
started queueing up till 2.50pm.
first scoop of my ice cream.(Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough)
with my TJ 7 sisters.




shopped around with 7 sisters till around 3.20pm.
by that time, i already finished my first scoop of ben & jerry.
if not it would have already melted lo.

met dawn at around 3.25pm.
queued once again with her.
cut queue as we saw how ee and gan jun!
haha. cut almost half the queue.
got my second scoop(which is in a cup) (Chocolate Fudge Brownie) at 3.50pm.

then went around white sands once again with dawn.
finished up my second scoop.
and took a few photos with dawn using her new phone.

the silver K800i!!

then, 4.40pm.
junjie reached white sands.
we joined him in queueing.
i was thinking, am i really going for my third scoop?! omg!!

so, niff reached at around 5pm.
and we were nearing the counter already.
niff tried to cut queue.
but there is this disgusting old ben & jerry worker there.
he stopped him from joining the queue.
so dawn and i took his "order" and ordered on his behalf.
thus, dawn and i shared one scoop. ( Sweet Cream & Cookies)

so niff owe me once as i help him queue for his ice cream.
and he owe me another once as i missed my bus cos of him.
altogether he owe me twice.
i'll remember!

p.s. among all the three flavours
Chocolate Fudge Brownie is ranked first.
followed by Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough,
then Sweet Cream & Cookies! hehe..

but i still think that Phish Food and Marsha Marsha Marshmallow is the best! (=

joan rOx!
ben & jerry rOx!

ben & jerry's day!

yeah! it was a happy ben & jerry day!

our tues was supposed to be a long day til 4.30pm.
but we manged to rushed down to the white sands branch by 2.25pm.
thanks to our GP tutor Mr Calvin Tan for kindly shifting forward Gp to the earlier time slot.
and also very much thanks to there being no PE!

it was such an interesting day in school as we all couldn't wait to go to ben & jerry!
we are so so crazy about ben & jerry that we tried and show our love for it!

my wrist being "cutted" by infant!!*ouch*
did this during maths lecture. that's why i was wide awake.
but during biology lecture. sianz diao.


infant's hand.
drawn it during biology tutorial.
at the same time, had had an interesting conversation
about X gal in our 1 o' clock direction.

Jiawei's hand.
vandalized by Phebe Bay (infant) also.
done during biology tutorial.

Group photo of the 3crazy, tan chi n ben& jerry lovers!
we are one big family.
on the left is daddy no.2, then infant, then mummy!(me!)
venue: the hot and stuffy biology lab.

okie..those are the before going to ben and jerry pictures.
shall blog about the real ben & jerry later or some other time . (=

one of my happiest day recently

yesterday was fun!
it was seriously one of my happiest day!
it was also dawn's bdae! hee.. altho her bdae present was like ermm..crap...
haha...but nvm...she sorta like it alot..
we wanted her not to like the present lo!

it was this powerpuff girl cake!
i feel that its quite ugly.
niff thinks that dawn wont like it too.
but when we gave it to her, she went...
"oh! so cute!" in a bit of a high pitch voice!
haha..so exaggerating!
maybe she was just trying to not make us disappointed.
but in actual fact we were quite disappointed that she like it...omg!
it just turned out so so LEFT!

we went bowling in textile centre.
for like around 30minutes only.
because the alley was to be closed at 2pm for some competition.
and sadly, niff was the only one who bowl.
nothing very interesting happened during bowling, except for the fact that niff is seriously a drain washer..
his bowl skills sucks~!
haha...wait till he sees this. but i doubt he will tho..=P

then, we walked to beach road!
i love the hawker centre at beach road!
it reminds me of my kayaking times!
i love the chicken rice there also!
haiz..but i din eat it yesterday.
was too full to eat chicken rice.
we ate some belgium ice cream.
mine was specoolas, (some kinda biscuit flavour, which taste somewhat similar to venezia tartufo)
dawn's was super lemon! which really tasted very very sour, yet it refreshes at the same time.

while niff ate waffle with chocolate dip! haha..plus a tiny bit of specoolas and super lemon from dawn's and mine.
this is niff's waffle, with chocolate dip.and the heart shape look alike is our ice cream!

the prices are reasonable.
1scoop $1.80.
waffle with chocolate dip $2.50
1 scoop with waffle $3.60
really worth trying out.. (altho i think ben and jerry is still the best!)

after our ice cream,
we walked aimlessly out of the hawker centre.
actually we were supposed to be walking to a bus stop.
all of us thought that someone else was leading the correct way.
but we ended "lost" somewhere.
haha.
its okie.
we weren't that lost.
reached bugis dreanched.

from bugis we took train to tampines.
shopped at Metro!
and we met Li An!!!
ahhh!! really a np gathering day!
haha.

this is me with niff's pink toshiba mp3 player.
haha. its pink! its a cute little whale.
i wanna bring it home!
so cute!

oh no..i have lots of homework yet to be done.
feeling very shagged already.
going out again later.
will try and complete as much homework as possible.
i need to study hard.

p.s. i am not demanding! yeah! (=

thanks to those who made my day happy!

the past few days.

learn to love the people around you.
do not wait till you lose them then you regret.
i am trying hard not to think so much as what xiao mei mei ask me to.
its slowly getting better.
i am reassured.

sometimes i dunno what's with me.
school is not something i look forward to.
somehow i dread school at times.
the feeling is weird and different.
the feeling has changed.
i dunno since when has it changed.
but i just feel different.

i don't blame anyone.
it is a change in myself.
i may be quieter now.
but don't worry i will go back to my talkative self soon.

its just that i miss those times.
those times that i spent with my family the past few days.
i feel really blessed to have them.
i love all of them.
i love
my da biao ge,
wei lai da biao ge sao
er biao ge,
da biao jie,
da biao jie fu,
er biao jie,
er biao jie fu,
san biao jie,
xiao biao jie aka xiao mei mei,
my darling bro,
little naughty boy boy,
and the cutest little girl...

they made my life the past few days.
the things we did together,
folding of joss papers,
burning of joss papers,
drinking cups after cups of coffee,
visits to 7 eleven in the middle of the night,
"snatching" for doraemon magnets,
having Mac for supper,
enjoying nice laska, red ruby, chicken rice bought by my cousins,
squeezing together in the hyundai Matrix,
etc etc etc..

it was the most memorable few days in my life.
please.
stay this way.
i want it to stay this way.
gathering around the corner i hope.
looking forward to mahjong session with da biao ge, er biao jie, n san biao jie.(okie xiao mei mei also la.)
i hope that it will come real soon.
although i think da biao will be too busy,
and he would most likely pang seh.
haiz. nevertheless i am hoping to see all of them soon! =)

in loving memory of my dearest ah ma

i miss her a lot.
Although she is now physically gone but yes, she will live in my heart forever.

Did everything happen too suddenly?
I dunno if its considered sudden.
She was discharged from ICA and transferred to a normal ward on monday.
and on wed 040407, 339am, she left this world.
I was planning to visit her on wed, after school.
the last time i visited her was on Sunday.
She was still in ICA at that time.
She was still feeling quite weak, but she looks a lot more energetic than before.
She even opened her eyes and gave me a slight nod that Sunday.

On tues, she asked the maid for my bro & i.
I really regretted not visiting her earlier.

Wed 330am.
Mom woke me up.
Mom was already at the hospital.
She broke the news to me.
Ah ma has passed away.
My bro & i rushed down to the hospital.
We didn't fulfill her last wish of seeing my bro & i.
This is my deepest regret.

I saw her lying on the bed.
She looks like she has left peacefully.
I cant take it anymore.
I broke down.
As I'm typing this, i'm crying once again.

I know i must be strong.
i know ah ma don't want me to cry also.
I know that she is still around, taking care of us.
i can feel that she is with us.
But i just cant stop myself from crying.

i'm trying not to cry.
i know i'm ok.
or rather i'll be ok.
you all will not understand...

to me its perfectly fine to tear a little.
i'm a human with emotions.
just that its still difficult to accept the fact that i cant see her forever.

But i believe that ah ma has gone to a better place.
Somewhere beautiful.
Somewhere where she can be reunited with ah gong.
Somewhere where her sufferings will be relieved.
A place where ah ma can live happily ever after.


Very often, I may be crying for different reasons.
It may be due to the sadness.
It may be due to some other factors.
I'm furious.
Mad at some people who are unfilial.
I hate those unfilial bastards!
I hate them to the core!
Superficial people!
can they stop acting?
the trust has been betrayed.
So stop putting the blame on others.

And to those stupid ones.
You all are being made the scapegoat!
Stop being so naive.
They are just making use of you all.
Things are not what they appear to be.
gullible idiots.

Stop maligning people!
Are you sure your conscience is clear when you said all those awful things?
you know it best.
Just wanna let you know that i hate all of you!

i'm upset.
cos ah ma dun deserve this at all.
she has given them so much.
dote on them so much.
caring for them endlessly.
but what did she get in return?
this is unfair to her.

I know that ah ma knows.
ah ma knows who is good and who is not.
i truly believe that she knows.

I'm very sure she knows.
She appeared in my dream.
She was implying that she knows.
She was telling me not to worry.
I believe in her.
I'm not going to be too bothered by this.
ah ma don't wanna see me sad.
i'm gonna do what she wants me to.
Yes, I'll study hard.
I'm going to do well.
I won't disappoint her.


to all those who were there for me:
Thank you very much.
Forgive me if i start crying in front of anyone of you again.
I'll try to control myself.
give me some more time.

Thanks for tolerating my foul mood also.
I really appreciate all those who were there for me when i needed it the most.
Especially to my cousins. (my one united family..)
i love all of you.
Let's continue our spirit of unity.
we are one big happy family.
looking forward to our next gathering!

p.s. Please stop asking if i'm ok. Cos i'm seriously ok. Yes, i am.
crying doesn't mean that i'm not ok.
Sorry if you think that i'm being emo.
that's me.
accept it.

emotions

i started tearing after reading this post.
written by my cousin.
once again i was reminded.
and i cried.

way back into love (with lyrics)

Way Back Into Love (full version)

this is the song i love!
MUSIC AND LYRICS!!
meaningful!

music and lyrics

I love this song.
Way Back Into Love

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

(koped from Phebe's blog!=))

confident

Ms Goh showed us this transparency with lots of cute faces on it!
She made us choose the mood that we are in.
and i choose this.
CONFIDENT
not really cause I'm confident, but nore because this face looks happy!!
hehe.
i love happy faces!

...

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: joan
Birth Date: 30th nov
Current Status: attached
Eye Colour: blackish brown
Hair Colour: brown
Righty or Lefty: righty

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
My Heritage : Chinese
My Fears : darkness, sadness, clowns.. =X
My Perfect Pizza : BBQ and CHEESE!

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
My Thoughts First Waking Up : oh no its a sch day agn..haiz..
My Bedtime : i wanna talk! hee..
My Most Missed Memory: NP time..haiz...

LAYER 4: MY PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: neither! Ribena!
McDonald's or Burger King: Mac happy meal!! grilled chicken burger!
Single or Group Dates: depends on who is going..but ok with both..
Adidas or Nike: san tiao! (three strips)
Tea or Nestea: Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: i prefer it dark!
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappucino?

LAYER 5: DO YOU...
Smoke: no way!!
Curse: not really except for shit..
Take a Shower: yes yes
Have a Crush: nono..
Think You've Been In Love: yup=))
Go To School: yes..currently..but i need a rest!
Want To Get Married: hehe..yup! (=
Believe In Yourself: I guess I do..depends..
Think Your A Health Freak: hmmz..not really..its periodical..
The verdict is: JOAN ROX!!


LAYER 6: IN THE PAST.
Drank Alcohol: no no...obviously no..i am underage you know..
Gone To The Mall : erm..stupid question..of course la!
Been On Stage: yup yup
Eaten Sushi: Yes. but dun really like it now.
Dyed Your Hair: no no..my hair is of natural color.

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER...
Played A Stripping Game: no
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: i try not to..

LAYER 8: AGE YOU'RE HOPING...
To Be Married: hmmz...depends lo..

LAYER 9: IN A GUY...
Best Eye Colour: blackish brown
Best Hair Colour: any colour
Short Hair or Long Hair: hopefully short

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A Minute Ago: chatting online
Hour Ago: studying for bio=(
4.5 Hours Ago: in zzz land
1 Month Ago: cant rmbr exactly..but should be mugging..
1 Year Ago: having lots of fun! enjoying life...

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love : hee..somebody
I feel: cared for
I hate: smokers and promise-breakers
I hide: hmmz..dunno?? emotions at times?
I miss: NP days!
I need: rest...

LAYER 12: TAG 5 PEOPLE.
1) anyone
2) anyone
3) anyone
4) anyone
5) anyone


(anyone named anyone can do this..)

complicated

why are things in life so complicated?

friendship.
relationship.
kinship.

Friendship
Do we have to tell our friends every single thing that happened in my life?
Not all people are willing to.
Please respect the privacy of those who wish to keep certain things from us.
Forcing them to say things will not work.
If they are comfortable, they will tell you.
If they are not, do not probe.

Sometimes it may just be inappropriate to tell certain people certain things.
Probably because they think that it may be a burden to others.
Probably they may also think that it is irrevelant to certain people.
Probably also because there is seriously no time to share these things with.
haiz.
Accept it.
Friendship isn't as simple as you think it is.

Relationship
Is it really that difficult to love someone forever?
Is it true that after the so called "honey-moon" period, feelings for each other will fade?
Is relationship just the work of chemical reactions in our body?
Is there no psychological explanation to it?

Why is it that one party will be more emotionally attached?
Does it matters how people look at your relationship?
How will you know if one party has a sudden change of heart?
Is it possible for an already broken relationship to be mended again?
How many times can it be mended?
Where do you think your relationship will lead you to? Forever and ever?

Let natural take its course.
Let fate decide.
Yes, I do.

Kinship
Family.
The people you live with everyday.

How many of you can really tell your family members every single thing?
What will they think of your ideology and perception towards certain things?
How will they see you?
How will they response?
Are they willing to accept?

To ask for their acceptance isn't a lot.
It is just the extra effort that they need to put in your shoes.
Seeing things in your perspective.

If you want their understanding.
Understand them first.
It is easier said than done.
Try it yourself.

Life is great??

the mind works in a complicated manner.

different people encounters different problems.
different problems requires different approaches.
different approaches lead to different consequences.

no matter what the consequences are,
You will have to face them.
It is a path that you have chosen yourself.
At times, you may feel that this is not entirely your fault.
And neither is it the fault of others.

Very often, it is easier to blame others.
Human beings are naturally egoistic.
Its hard to admit that the mistake was made yourself.

It is even harder to accept something that people said.
This is especially so when they are right about this something.

Facing problems is part and parcel of life.
Choose your own way to face these problems and obstacles in life.
It isn't worth it to be hindered by these obstacles.
Stopping you from achieving the success awaiting at the other end.

Don't give up.
Life is worth having you in it.
You make the difference in your own life.

Phebe's and Kristen's bdae

21st March 2007
After being pestered by Phebe Bay Chun Hui for about one month or so, its finally her special day!

Photos taken on her bdae!

this is the bdae cake that stef made for her. =)
yummy cake!
really delicious and full!
greedy Kesleen took TWO pieces!
tsk tsk tsk..that ah zhou ah... so unhealthy!!

Later at night
dinner at Hans!! (haiz..yes Hans again..but very very nice!)

this are pictures at Hans:

when Kristen receives her present.
the white cap.
with added accessories.
designed and made by stef and LY!!
(on de day that phebe called stef)
hee..

we have completed one cycle of our bdaes!
everyone of us have our special bdae gifts from the seven sisters.
so wads next?

my infant's bdae.

i have to say this no matter what!
my infant is really gettting on my nerves.
her continuous and never ending questions about her birthday.
and my patient and witty replies.
and i think infant is truely enjoying herself while she inquires about her present.
but i what i said was really true.
i am seriously not very involved in infant's present.
UNTILL>>
yesterday night.. haha.. while i had fun try to decorate infaant's cookbook!
it is so so so so interesting!! haha.. i hope infant will be happy after reading it!
infant is at economics lecture now.
i am secretly hoping that infant is reading the cookbook now.
but i doubt so as her lecturer will ask questions.
And being the luckily little infant birthday girl,
she might kena a question by the lecturer.
my point is, infant will need to take quite long to finish reading the whole cookbook.
as in not the recipe part, but those add-ons!
i contributed to fifteen pages of add-ons in the cookbook!
haha! hehe!!i guess i broke the record! =P
cos i have the whole evening to do the add-ons.
and i have a strong feeling that infant will like the last few pages of the cookbook alot!
gee..

anyway, i wanna apologise to infant for de a bit lousy wrapping skills.
but you can consider yourself lucky.
cos very often, i do not wrap people's present.
you aren't the first that i wrapped.
but you are one of the very few that i wrapped!

gotta go.. the bell rang..

interesting.

Natasha Bedingfield - I Wanna Have Your Babies

came upon this video while reading my friend's blog. and yes, i am hooked to this video also. but i dunno for what reason though.
pretty cute.

waste of time

it was indeed a complete waste of my time.
40 min to the destination.
and another 40 min back home.
just for a short 15 min talk.
stupid.
super duper long traveling time.
the conclusion of the talk was already pretty obvious.
there is no point in this talk.

sorry, but i just do not like that person that i talked to.
maybe I am biased towards her.
do I not deserve some praising?
I think i did improve?

i do not like the way she put her words across.
she should go for some psychological course.

haizz.
why isn't she leaving instead of him?
How I wished that its her.

interesting.

something very interesting happened yesterday morning.
It seems so much so that everything that happened was destined to occur.
The series of events left me with no other explanation except that its all fated.
And yes, i truly believe that its fate.

regarding my previous post

erm... i am feeling a little sorry about blogging in such a negative light about my parents previously. I was just trying to vent my anger. I guess they are also stressed and have a lot of problems and troubles on their mind. Neither do I want to add on to their troubles. At times, I just need someone to listen to me. And that's why I am luckily to have my brother around.
Haiz.. Life isn't that great recently.. Although its now hols, i won't be blogging very much though..

sudden urge to blog about this..

They are the closest people related by blood ties and yet they don't seem to understand you.
They may think what they are doing for you is the best.
what they reprimand you for is all for your own good.
Everything that they did and planned for you is for your own good.

Parents
All the parents in this world wide world are somewhat similar.
All of them have a common parental instinct,
guiding their every action.
All the constant scoldings, naggingS and even beatings since young,
it alll originated due to this parental instinct.
Which is their CARE for their children.

Nevertheless, my parents are also like that.
At times, i think they are too unreasonable.
Too over-protective.
Not giving me enough freedom.
In their eyes, i have never ever grown up.

i don't know why.
But i don't seem to get them to put trust in me.
They never seem to understand that I do know how to differentiate the right from the wrong.
I do know my limits.
And integrity guides my every actions.
I believe that my parents have brought me up well.
An this good up-bringing will follow me through life.

It hurts when you know that your parents do not trust you.
It hurts even more when you let them know certain things
And they become very worked up and very against it.
Without even giving you a chance of trying it out,
Or not to say even a chance to defense yourself.
They tend to generalise things (yes, i admit that i am generalising parents too.)
And stay on the darker side of life.
They seem to think highly of their experience towards certain issues.
And make false assumptions that things all happen that way.
Can't they see that the world around them is changing.
And things are no longer the same.

Sometimes i do wonder..
Why can't all parents be equally open-minded?
Why can't they share their experiences with us such thst we know what to expect when time comes.
Why can't they accept certain facts?
And most importantly, why can't they put more trust in their daughter?

please, your daughter is 17 going 18.
She has brains.
which contain well developed brain cells,
that are mature enough to differentiate what's right and what's wrong.
She is not as stupid as you all think she is.
And she will not get cheated for goodness sake!
Please give her some more trust.
And reassure her that you all do trust her.

it is seriously very stressful at times to figure out what my parents want.
It seems that I'm not as close to them as before.
I don't feel like telling them things.
They do not seem to be interested.
The trust is betrayed.
I seriously see no point in telling them things.
yes, its sad, but sorry..

infant is once again obedient!

mummy is loving infant for this! (=

to my mummy

sorry mummmy,
i broke your heart,
by saying that you suck.
but im still young and innocent,
and i dont mean to act like a militant!
i am shy,
and i do not lie,
i must admit u 've been really good to me,
especially when u changed my diapers, without a fee.
all i wanna say,
please do stay,
and do forgive this little infant of yours,
cos shes your happiness, only source! (opps i forgot abt daddy)


INFANT

and sorry mummy is not linguistically strong enough to write infant a poem.

my infant is bad =(

told you infant is bad! here is the evidence!!

this is what she wrote:

"facts abt me, i have a mummy whos quite bad to me most of the time"

what a bad infant!

my infant =(

WARNING:
Please ensure that you are not sensitive
towards pictures that aren't are very cute.

cause the following pictures that you will see is my noisy infant.



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this is my infant.
it she is Phebe Bay.
she is a noisy infant who wants a bucket of hor fan for her bdae.
she takes weird pictures.
she is weird.
she is a lucky infant.
cos mummy and daddy dotes on her.
but her mummy and daddy are unlucky.
due to her,
her daddy needs to work very very hard so that she can eat crabs!
& her mummy needs to bring her to smelly mandai to visit her rich bf.
her daddy needs to work very very hard to pay for her visits to mandai.
& her mummy needs to tolerate her noisiness in mandai.

at times, infant can be a very nice and obedient infant.
how mummy wish that she can be nice and obedient everytime.
lastly, mummy just wanna tell infant that mummy loves her.

a meaningful song =)

If You're Not the One
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And I know my heart is by your side
(extracted only certain parts of the lyrics that i find very very meaningful)



and here is Ron and Hermione's version of If You're Not the One.
cleverly infused into the song.

a happy song

i like this song! 卓文萱-幸福调味
a lot a lot!
it makes me happy! really happy! =))

from go green day

this was like so so so long ago already.
11February2007.
yes, i did have fun.
=)

my chinese is good!

my chinese is good!!!
its proven by my chinese results!
mind you its my chinese O level results + my chinese A level results also!!
yeah!!

2 years ago, O level chinese, A1, oral distinction.
Now, A level, A, oral distinction.

yeah yeah!!
i am so happy! haha..

and please, i am not being ego here! I just wanna show that my chinese is good. please stop saying that its lousy. i couldn't have tyco-ed twice right?!!

=)))

dawn is jealous!!

haha!!
dawn is jealous!!
i dunno why but i smell vinegar in her words!
very strong vinegar smell...
oh my god!!
the smell is really overwhelming!!
ahh!!
i cant take it anymore!
=))

mOre phOtos frOm chInesE nEw yEar!

Yvonne(my cousin), Mabelle(my niece) and I!!
it looks like we are squeezing mabelle..but nono... its just because we are close!
i like this picture too! very sweet =)

this picture was supposed to have only Yvonne and Mabelle in it...
but...suddenly someone when into the picture.
don't you think that the picture becomes a lot more prefect after the addition of someone?

(took quite a few photos with mabelle and Yvonne.
I think Mabelle will become like us one day! ZI LIAN!!!)

this is a photo taken by Mabelle!
seriously, she took the photo herself!
the only thing i did was to teach her how to press the button.
hee.. talented!

my niece and I

i love this picture! =)))

mabelle and I!!

mabelle loves BJ.
BJ is this yellow thingy from Barney.
She sings "I love you" to me!
She loves me!!!
hahaha..

mabelle is starting to like snoopy too!
she kissed this Snoopy!!

bush confused

random thoughts

Joan is happy!
studying happily!
Life has been great! =)

keeping to my promise.
yes, i will.

梁山伯与茱丽叶

Notice that the song title is of liang shan bo and Juliet instead of liang shan bo and zhu ying tai or Romeo and Juliet.

Upon hearing the song title, i thought that the song is of two people who are of different religion, race or cultural background. i mean its not a big deal right? i strongly believe that a couple can be together regardless of race, language or religion.

However, after viewing the MV. I feel that it seems as though time is pulling the couple apart.
Probably its due to the age gap, or maybe its due to the fear of rejection causing the delay.
Time and tide waits for no man.

i find this part of the lyrics very meaningful...

我的心想唱首歌给你听，歌词是如此的甜蜜。
可是我害羞我没有勇气, 对你说一句我爱你。

为什么你还是不言不语，难道你不懂我的心？
不管你用什么方式表明，我会对你说我愿意。

千言万语里只有一句话能表达我的心

千言万语里只要一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依

This is a song added to my favourites song recently!
((=

school reopen

first day of school.
not feeling very good about going to school.
went to school half heartedly.
partial guiltiness.
homework partially done.

civics.break.lecture.break.lecture.
lectures, no gain in new knowledge (maybe chemistry)
other than a rough overview of the subjects.

however, sorta looking forward to school.
better than staying at home and slack.
a bit of slacking is good.
but a lot of slacking is no good.

yes.
joan is gonna be a guai little innocent and hardworking girl.
no more slacking.
no more sms-ing in class.
no more visits to my second home.
no more ponning of lectures.
no more ponning of tutorials.

tough.
but can be done.
with a little of self discipline.
should be done.
no.
MUST be done.

ending with..

JOAN CAN DO IT!!