34 degrees celsius!!!

The weather is freak freak freaking hot!!
):
Damn, its hard to study at high temperatures. High Temperature, High humidity!
Gosh! I am dissolving in own perspiration everytime I am outta my house!

Even in my cooling room, with the air condition turned on, I am still feeling the heat in me!



I need some life.
I need some exercise.
I need some time for my loved ones.
I need some time for myself and all my packing that yet to be done! argh.
I need more time for my tuition kidos!
Their exams are coming real soon and I am flying off already!
(They will be seeing me everyday from this Sun onwards..poor them..)

Cant wait for everything to be over.
And in a few days time, I am off to Germany.
Gosh, too fast/soon to be true.

Hopefully I wont get too overly homesick, which I think I will. ):
I shall try!

Anyway, Aunt was really nice. She called the other day, asking me about my preparation of the trip and stuff.. Then, she asked me when will I be back, and we can have a double Mama&Dada Day Celebration!! (Cos if they have it any earlier, I would miss out the Mama Day celebration! ):)
My Aunt is so cool! (: I am touched!

She also added that Malcom is becoming cuter and cuter each day! beginning to babble! (: urhh!! I miss my cousin kids! Marcus, Mabelle, Malcom! I guess I will only get to see them after I am back from Germany! ):

I will be missing out on dumplings festival in Singapore!!! AHHH!! but mom bought me an extremely oily nyonya dumpling that day. Not bad, just that its extremely oily.

Daily meals in germany will be bread after bread. Brown, Light brown, Dark Brown, Medium Brown, Black? Heh. Needa go really budget! (For the sake of Paris disneyland!!! Yeah man!) Bread isn't a torture to me, its an enjoyment! Rice is the torture!

I am missing one thing. One thing that I have abstained for quite sometime! :D
Hehe! (:


Love, you have been neglected. ): I will make up for it. That will be after me coming back from Germany. 1 and a half more months. skype me kkz! (: muacks! ♥

overly short

that zeal in me is so short.
why?
it was possible yesterday afternoon.
Why not today's afternoon?

I feel like I am falling sick. ):
woke up with a painful throat.
uclers filling up my mouth.
accidental bites on my tongue! *freaking ouch!*

uttering rubbish here.
just woke up from my reluctant 2 hours afternoon nap.
Reluctant to nap and reluctant to awake.
):

hang in there..
as mugging begins..

"You've got to find what you love." Steve Jobs wise words (:

'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says
This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

and nope, i do not idolize him. Joan idolizes no one! :D [expect for herself probably. (:]

the arrogant iPhone!

Lil Sokz - Never Be Replaced male version (:

he wrote these lyrics himself.

baby i love you and i'll never let you go.

I love you,
Yes I do.
I'll be with you as long as you want me to.
Until.
The end.
Of time.

From the day I met you
I knew we'll be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you
And I wanna have your kids

is everything perfect or is perfect everything?

currently repeated in my playlist. (:

Stef, there is a korean part in the front! And i heard the "Opa" word! haha! boyfriend!

enjoy and think of the lyrics. (:

你常常说 我很完美
没人能取代 我给的一切
我就以为 我努力更完美
我们 就会永远
完美并不美
我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美
当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美
后来你说 我太完美
值得更好的 陪在我身边
你不是我 你怎么能体会
你有 多么珍贵
完美并不美
我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美
当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美
完美并不美
我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美
当你爱了谁
我的完美成了罪
完美并不美
我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美
当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

The final one.

The final test to conclude my LAG2201.
Hopefully I can do well in it!

I am just aiming for a B+.
Maintaining my last semester grade.
Though, I have been doing much better for all my tests as compared to the previous semester.
Maybe not oral? I dunno... I thought I did fine, but just don't have a good feeling about the oral results. Just wondering if we would ever get our oral results back. And some feedback too. (:

Oh, and Tampines 1 is finally opened! (:
Of course being a kiasu tampinesian I went down to Tampines 1 on the first day!
My Tampines 1 buddies were Kesleen, Stef and my brother!
Mom came over to join us for dinner after that.

Woohoo! There is a Bakerzin there! (:
Wanted to have dinner there but the place is really too crowded and the restaurant itself is pretty small, not suitable for accommodating that kinda crowd of that day.

There is a really small Sky Terrence. which my brother thinks that many people will go there and pak tor. That place is more of a smokers' heaven to me! eeks la! There was this chao ah beng who spitted on the floor la. What the hell!

I haven seen the indoor swimming pool around though.

Oh, the hottest thing in Tampines 1 is Uniqlo! haha! you need to queue up just to get in! Sounds like an LV shop, but nah, the things inside are affordable, in fact rather cheap, cos they are having sales for ten days! (till 19April!)

Polo Tees for $6.90! Skirts for $4.90! cheap right?
However, i did not have the patience to queue so, too bad. Shall visit it again when the queue is not so long, or when finally there is no need to queue to go in!

Saw quite a few Mediacorp celebrities there too. Many have opened shops in there.
I will be going down to Tampines 1 again tonight with dear (:
haha! bye!

back to studying for that final test. (:

papercut

just got this huge papercut on my hand and i feel faint!
gosh! You don't have any idea how painful it is. Just a small little cut.

Cut below the fingernail of my thumb.
The awful part with all the lines and wrinkles.
Directly on top of it. Shucks!

Nah, it isn't bleeding. Just a deep cut.
Fainting soon.
):

more reasons to faint:
Just completed an extremely difficult HAG for my German!
LAG2201 is getting tough!

CM1161 is killing me. Homework 7! Mine and Jiawei's combined question, Kesleen's question!
Haiz. Log mean temperature. I don't get it! unsolvable equations.

Cm1131 tutorial. Haven finish yet. First question and I am stuck. moved on to the second question, doable but totally no mood to do. guess i will leave it till tomorrow and once again, i am attending another tutorial slot. I had never gone for my own tutorial slot anyway.

Tuition was alright today. Suddenly had to coach two Primary 5 kids. Effectively, I have 4 tuition kiddos?
Payday next Wednesday. (: Looking forward to seeing the increase in my bank account! :D

its a vicious cycle...

Recently many are telling me that snoopy is very old!
Its the oldest cartoon or what la. Thanks to the jacky wu show.

Nevertheless, I still love snoopy!
I love old stuffs (:

Got some results back.
Best being my German Vocab test! :) 95%! Woohoo!
Next vocab test coming up, thursday. will be aiming for around this grade or even higher!
Looking forward to my immersion over there!
Hopefully I will be able to catch up and learn a lot more! :D

Got my CM1121 mid-sem test too.
61/100. Okies la. thought that i would do worse.
Question 2 was a killer for many.
20 marks question. Luckily i got 13. I think that was what saved me.
Test is doable if you study really hard and really understand all that organic mechanisms that are happening.
My tutor is right, It has been proved that for CM1121 people can get full marks!
yeah, my best buddy's best friend got full marks! 100/100!
Unbelievable! Nah, i think it is believable la. Cause its him! and he actually has the cheek to tell me that he haven found his stimulus. What the hell!

Got a B for the most recent labreport.
I think it is largely due to the fengshui of my fumehood.
Fumehood G6 really has lousy fengshui!
Things just don't turn out as it should be.
And i did not do anything wrong at all! How can that be right?
Haiz, hope that this lab report will be better than the previous one.

I believe that it will (: and things will eventually turn out right. (:
The secret, I am loving it. (:

we played paintball! @ Red Dynasty

This is one of those posts that have been neglected!
buried in draft!

28 June 2008
went for paintball with NP instructors.
:D

i did not regret going for paintball!
not at all!
BUT i don't think i will ever want to go back there again!

Haha.
The reason being the after effects are really too painful for me to endure.
Contused wounds sucks!!
I shall post up the pictures of the contused wounds in future!
(attached below!)

Paintball's play area isn't as big as people imagine it to be.
The play area is about the netball court size.
however, your movement area is less than half a netball area size lo.
sounds like its not tiring right?
eh, but if you are like Danial,
flip flip,
roll roll,
duck duck,
then, yeah, it is very tiring.
):
you may even end up vomiting pellets!
HAHA! *inside joke*

A common misconception is that paintball will stain your clothes.
eh, but no leh.
my clothes aren't stained at all. (:

oh ya, and after getting shot,
you will feel numb initially, not pain initially.
*special note, it is initially!
but it gets painful after the game and all that hype and excitement!

Whether or not the fun is worth the pain?
hmm, go try and decide for yourself ba!

Just some of the pictures that i have found! :D
HAHA! discourage the timid ones from going (:

The smallest wound that bleed on the spot!
pain! ):


This one was on my arm. Looks like some strawberry birthmark or love bite or what lor!


The most horrible one on my thigh!
I remember going around showing my friends this wound, and looking at their disgusted expressions!
HAHA! this picture does not do enough justice to how ugly the wound looks!

What the HELL!!!?

oh man!
how can this ever ever happen to me!
):
I am utterly terribly sad now.
My favourite beloved Snoopy
(this one.)

that dear gave me as my birthday present last last year fell into the toiletbowl this morning!

It is all my fault! I shouldn't have bought snoopy into the toilet with me.
Snoopy broke free from my hands and plunged straight into the toilet bowl!
The very toilet bowl with some chocolate look alike pieces of debris in it.

Yucks!
It really stinks like crazy now! ):
No matter how much i soak it, how much incanto dream i spray on it, it is still so so smelly!
Wasted almost half a bottle of incanto dream already. ):

I guess the only solution would be to throw him away. ):
He will have to be thrown away..
Highly unlikely kept.

Half an hour ago, Snoopy was just talking to flabby.
Flabby was complaining how his owner bullied him!
and this year Tigger did not badmouth his owner.

alrights, time for me to stop lying.


Ah
Pek
Really
Interesting
Leh

F
O
O
L!!

This post is totally random. Blame it on my Labreport. Driving me nuts!